Courtney Love is still reeling with guilt over the failed relationship with her estranged daughter Frances Bean Cobain, insisting she'd "give anything" to repair their bond.
The singer and late Nirvana rocker Kurt Cobain welcomed Frances in 1992 but the tot was placed in protective custody due to Love's long-running drug problems and, upon reaching her 18th birthday, she filed for emancipation from her mother.
Opening up during a candid interview with editors at Vanity Fair magazine, Love now laments she still feels responsible for failing her daughter as a parent, noting the young girl didn't learn to read until she was seven and she was often teased by fellow schoolchildren who called her "crack baby".
"It was my fault! I never read to her ...! Why didn't I ever take her to a Broadway show? She f**king loved those Broadway musicals! All I can feel is how much I love her. I'd give anything to hear the sound of her heels walking down the hall past my bedroom," she said.
And Love adds she was particularly heartbroken when she came across Frances' diary, and discovered she wasn't on her daughter's "Things That Make Me Happy" list.
"Why am I not on it? Why doesn't she put 'watching old movies with my mum'?" she said.
The singer also revealed she is still angry with husband Kurt Cobain for taking his own life and abandoning her and their daughter, insisting she'd "kill him" if she had the chance.
Cobain committed suicide in April, 1994.
She admits she was left to clean up his messy financial struggles and pick up the pieces of his shattered life, while trying to be a mum.
"If he (Cobain) came back right now I'd have to kill him, for what he did to us. I'd f**king kill him. I'd f**k him, and then I'd kill him.
"He tried to kill himself three times! He OD'd (overdosed) at least five times. I was the f**king EMS (Emergency Medical Services). I was always sticking pins in his balls. I carried around (life-saving drug for heroine users) Narcan!"
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